Arora Nin

Not in the mood? That is what I have been feeling, but I have to be honest here, it’s not a rarity for me. I consistently feel I am not in the mood for many things in my life every single day. It starts with being not in the mood to get myself to go on a run, not in the mood for Pilates either. Not in the mood to put my makeup on before I start my day. This not in the mood shows up for me all through the day and it encompasses everything to the point I have to drag myself to do the simplest...

The alarm goes off and I never hit snooze. I make my coffee – black, the same way, every morning, and I sit with it. For about half a cup I am fine and then it arrives. It's not a thought exactly, more like a pressure in my chest. It sits low and it doesn't have a name. It is a discomfort that I have learned, over time, to recognise as anxiety — though it took longer than I would like to admit to call it that. If I do not move, it takes over. If I sit still with no productive output, with...

They always say you don't know how good you have had it until it's gone. That has been a recurring theme in my life. There is no way to hold onto everything so tightly, to appreciate everything all at once. And so often, we don't notice how huge and important it really is, what integral part it plays in our lives, until it is no longer there. Getting my then 10-year-old daughter ready to spend her weekends with her father was a feeling, and a thing, I never expected to do or have to feel....