Not in the mood? That is what I have been feeling, but I have to be honest here, it’s not a rarity for me. I consistently feel I am not in the mood for many things in my life every single day. It starts with being not in the mood to get myself to go on a run, not in the mood for Pilates either. Not in the mood to put my makeup on before I start my day. This not in the mood shows up for me all through the day and it encompasses everything to the point I have to drag myself to

The alarm goes off and I never hit snooze. I make my coffee – black, the same way, every morning, and I sit with it. For about half a cup I am fine and then it arrives. It's not a thought exactly, more like a pressure in my chest. It sits low and it doesn't have a name. It is a discomfort that I have learned, over time, to recognise as anxiety — though it took longer than I would like to admit to call it that. If I do not move, it takes over. If I sit still with no productive

They always say you don't know how good you have had it until it's gone. That has been a recurring theme in my life. There is no way to hold onto everything so tightly, to appreciate everything all at once. And so often, we don't notice how huge and important it really is, what integral part it plays in our lives, until it is no longer there. Getting my then 10-year-old daughter ready to spend her weekends with her father was a feeling, and a thing, I never expected to do or

I watched a TED talk recently about how to triage your life. Red for urgent. Green for leave it alone for now. Black for what you already know is futile but are still trying to rescue. I have been sitting with those thoughts for weeks. Not because it told me anything I did not already know. Because it named, very precisely, what I had been refusing to look at directly. We all have black codes. We all know what they are. And we all know that the moment we stop pouring energy i

Who do you want to be? Not who were you. Not who did everyone need you to be. Not who did you spend the last ten years becoming because that is what the situation required. Who do you want to be? I ask that question because it is the only one worth asking and because nobody asked it of me when I needed it most. I had to get to the end of everything I thought I was building before I understood that the question was even available to me. I did not get here willingly. I want to

There is a kind of exhaustion that most people will not allow to show on the outside. It is buried beneath the armour — the competence, the composure, the version of you that keeps everything moving. You are the one who has to hold everything together because no one else will. Maybe it is just your own life that you are struggling to hold up, but you cannot pause long enough to say — I don't want to do this anymore. It is so hard to admit that, even to yourself. And imp

Understanding the Emotional Toll of Divorce I was on the treadmill last week, listening to Ocean Vuong on Mel Robbins' podcast. He recounted the time his mother was at the supermarket buying tomatoes. At the checkout, she had to put a few back because she couldn't afford them. I had to stop running because that apology lives within me as well. It's the very same words I've whispered to my children, wrapped in shame so thick I can barely breathe around it. The guilt of watchin

Spring cleaning is part of Chinese New Year - out with the old, in with the new. This year it feels different because I'm not just clearing space for good fortune, I'm preparing to move and I don't know yet where I'll be living. I never knew how much stuff I had until now. Because of the ample amount of storage space and my compulsive organization of everything - from color coding my wardrobe to organizing screws and nails according to type and size in perfect compartments -

The Year of the Fire Horse arrives with energy of movement and change – our minds read it as freedom and independence. The Fire Horse occurs once every 60 years – the last one being 1966. There's something fitting about this - the horse that runs far but remembers the stable, the journey that transforms us even as we seek the familiar comfort of return. This Chinese New Year feels different. My youngest, Sophie will leave for university in the UK this fall, and this will like

I decorated my entire house this year with painstaking details that only I would notice, as if beauty might translate to worth, as if the oils I blend and the perfumes I create and the careful arrangements might prove I am something. I have stayed in relationships that were performance, never daring to say that it was hard, that I was lonely, because I feared the silence of these holidays more than the quiet suffocation of staying. Each year at this time, I would be scouring

My mother is the most generous woman I have ever known. Not in the showy, headline-making way, but in the quiet, constant way that changes lives. She gives not just to family, but to everyone around her. Long before there was a movie called "Pay It Forward," she was living it, teaching me that generosity isn't about grand gestures—it's about seeing people. She taught me something that seemed counterintuitive at first: tip in advance. When we'd hire a tour guide, she'd pay the

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