Right Now Is Your Moment - The 10:10 Portal

Summer has gone and today as I write, it is mid-autumn. It is undeniable that October signals the move towards another end of year—and with that, we tend to take a look back onto the year we have had and wonder where has all the time gone and in wonder—how did it all pass by yet again so quickly.

It is natural to find yourself counting or checking your list of what you wanted to accomplish this year and then realize, maybe, why some of the items on the list have not been checked off.

Why are you stalling? That is what I feel about myself as I glance at the date this morning. In a blink of an eye, we would be singing Auld Lang Syne and heralding in 2026—and maybe some won't panic—but I do.

Another year has passed and what have I accomplished? Has my career moved forward, did I make something of myself? And it's not just about work, is it? What about the relationships in my life—did I build them for the better or am I too afraid to make a change? The unknown is a lot more frightening than the known, even when the known isn't great. I know this. I have lived this many times over.

We stay in jobs that drain us or does not fulfil us because at least we know what to expect. We remain in relationships that have run their course because the alternative—being alone, starting over, admitting we were wrong—feels more terrifying than the slow erosion of staying. We keep friendships that no longer serve us because ending them feels cruel, even when maintaining them costs us our peace.

These questions sit heavy in my chest as the autumn light filters through my window, softer now than summer's brightness. There's a quality to October that forces reflection whether we're ready for it or not.

When the Universe Conspires in Your Favor

But here's what I've come to understand: sometimes the universe offers us a gift of timing. A moment when change becomes easier, when the energy itself seems to support transformation rather than resist it. A moment when we can finally make the changes we've been too afraid to make, when we can finally leave what's comfortable but killing us softly and slowly.

We're in the middle of one of those moments right now.

The 10/10 portal—October 10th—carries significant energy in numerology. The number 10 represents both an ending and a beginning, completion and renewal happening simultaneously. When you double it to 10/10, that energy amplifies in ways that ripple through everything we touch. Through our work. Through our relationships. Through the life we've been settling for.

This isn't abstract spirituality for the sake of it. This is about recognizing when the current is with you instead of against you. This is about using cosmic support to finally do what you've known you needed to do but haven't had the courage to attempt.

There are moments when the doors we've been pushing against suddenly swing open with ease. When the changes we've been avoiding become not just possible, but inevitable. When the things we've been putting off all year—the conversation, the ending, the beginning, the truth—suddenly feel urgent and necessary.

When leaving the known for the unknown finally feels less frightening than staying where we are.

This is one of those moments.

The Supermoons Are Revealing What We've Hidden

And it's not just the portal. We're also experiencing supermoons—including October's Hunter's Moon—when the moon is closer to Earth than usual, appearing larger and brighter in the night sky.

If you've been feeling more emotional lately, more raw, anxious, like everything is suddenly more intense—that's why.

The moon governs our inner world: our emotions, our intuition, the parts of ourselves we usually keep carefully managed and hidden. When it's this close, those hidden things rise to the surface whether we've prepared for them or not.

You might be having vivid dreams that linger into your waking hours. Old memories surfacing without invitation. Sudden clarity about what isn't working in your life—the career that leaves you empty, the relationship we stay in because we have invested too much, the friendship that's become one-sided, the version of yourself you've been pretending to be for so long you forgot it's not really you. A discomfort that you cannot shake off because it keeps surfacing like unexpected urge to cry or a flash of anger that seems disproportionate to whatever triggered it.

The supermoon reveals what we've been pretending not to see. It shows us the relationships we're maintaining out of obligation rather than love. It illuminates the patterns we keep repeating because they're familiar, even when they're destroying us. It forces us to acknowledge the gap between the life we're living and the life we actually want.

This isn't you being too sensitive or losing control. This is energy moving. This is what happens when the universe decides it's time for you to pay attention to what you've been ignoring. This is the cosmic push you need to finally take stock and take action.

Why This October Matters More Than Most

I could write about personal growth during any season. But I'm writing this now because when you have the 10/10 portal and supermoons happening simultaneously, combined with October's natural energy of harvest and release, combined with that end-of-year panic we're all starting to feel—that's not coincidence.

That's a cosmic alignment designed to make us feel so uncomfortable, something has to change.

We're in the final quarter of the year. The time for pretending we'll get to things "eventually" has passed. The comfortable illusion that we have endless time has dissolved. What we do—or don't do—in these next weeks will determine whether we enter 2026 with momentum or with the same unfinished business we've been dragging behind us.

The people who recognize these moments and act? They're the ones who seem to transform overnight, who make changes that look effortless from the outside. Not because they're special or lucky, but because they understood timing. Because they moved when the current was strong instead of waiting for perfect conditions that never come.

What Personal Growth Actually Means

Before we continue, I need to be honest about what this actually means.

Personal growth isn't about becoming perfect or fixing everything that's supposedly wrong with you. It's not about positive thinking your way out of real problems or pretending you have it all figured out when you're actually falling apart.

I don't like to use the word transformation—it feels too dramatic, too final. We evolve. We grow. We become different versions of ourselves, but it's a process, not a single moment of metamorphosis.

And here's the truth: we can set out to be a different person, but if our behavior doesn't change, we remain exactly where we are. We stay in the same patterns, the same relationships, the same situations that aren't serving us. And when that happens—when we keep choosing the familiar over the necessary—that negative self-talk becomes louder. Our bodies keep the score of every promise we break to ourselves.

Growth is about becoming more of who you actually are underneath all the layers of who you thought you needed to be. It's about recognizing the patterns that keep you stuck in the same place year after year and having the courage to try something different.

It's about building a life that feels like yours—even when everything else is uncertain, even when you're terrified, even when others don't understand.

I noticed my own stagnation some months ago when I was writing in my five-year diary—one of those books where you write a sentence a day, and each page shows you what you wrote on that same date in previous years. And as I wrote, I realized nothing had changed.

The same struggles. The same patterns. The same person, year after year.

It can be hard to see ourselves so clearly. And journaling—it's not for everyone. Personally, I stopped journaling three years ago. Instead, when I want to release what's in my mind, when I want to allow myself the privilege of investigating what I'm feeling within my body, I simply drop into my heart space and allow myself to feel.

As a trauma-informed coach, I know this: in order to move toward something new, we need to truly release what we're holding within our body. This is exactly why I say to my clients—your body keeps the score.

All our undigested emotions are held within us. Every disappointment we swallowed. Every anger we suppressed. Every grief we didn't let ourselves fully feel. These old experiences are still within our physical bodies, stored in our tissues, our nervous system, our cellular memory. And without releasing them, we cannot expect ourselves to shift toward becoming who we want to be.

Growth, then, is about getting brutally honest about what I actually want, not what I was told to want or what looks good from the outside - it also means not settling for less any longer. It's meant learning to sit with discomfort instead of immediately reaching for distraction or numbing. It's meant taking care of myself in ways that feel nurturing rather than punishing or self sabotaging.

It's meant doing things that scare me. Speaking truths that feel risky. Setting boundaries I was afraid to set because I thought they'd make me selfish or less. Choosing myself even when it disappoints others or giving what has true value more.

The foundation is simpler than we make it: Know what matters to you. Take small, consistent actions toward it. Be willing to let go of what no longer serves you, even when letting go feels like loss.

That's it. Not easy, but simple.

The Five Steps That Actually Work

Growth doesn't follow a perfect linear path—I've learned that the hard way. But there is a rhythm to it, a pattern that repeats and deepens:

Awareness - You notice what isn't working anymore. The career that feels soul-crushing. The relationship that is empty. The friendship that's become transactional. The way you speak to yourself when no one else is listening. The dream or the challenge you keep deferring. The person you're pretending to be to keep others and yourself comfortable. You can't change what you won't acknowledge, and October has a way of making denial impossible.

Clarity - You decide what you want instead. Not vaguely, but specifically. Not what you think you should want, but what actually makes you feel alive inside. This is harder than it sounds because it requires the kind of honesty that makes you uncomfortable. It means admitting that the known—even when it's not great—has kept you prisoner. It means acknowledging that you've been choosing fear over growth.

Planning - You break it down into steps you can actually take. Small ones if that's what you need. The point isn't to have a perfect plan. The point is to have a next step, something concrete you can do tomorrow morning. Maybe it's starting a difficult conversation. Maybe it's researching what leaving would actually look like. Maybe it's just admitting out loud what you've known in your heart for months.

Action - You do the thing. Even when you're scared. Even when you're not sure it will work. Even when the unknown feels more terrifying than staying in what's slowly killing you. Even when it would be so much easier to stay where you are. Especially then - because another year will pass either way, and you'll either look back at this moment as when things changed or when you let another opportunity slip by. When you chose the familiar misery over the uncertain possibility of something better. You have to keep asking yourself why.

Adjustment - You pay attention to what's working and what isn't. You give yourself permission to change course without calling it failure. You celebrate the small wins that no one else notices—the boundary you set, the truth you spoke, the pattern you broke. You keep going even when progress feels invisible. You remember that the unknown is only frightening until you step into it, and then it becomes your new known.

This is the cycle. It repeats. It deepens. It spirals upward even when it feels like you're going backward or standing still.

What You Can Do This Week

The 10/10 portal energy is strongest for about 72 hours around the date. The supermoon amplifies everything. You have a window of cosmic support that won't last forever—and we're already running out of weeks before the year ends.

Here's what I'd suggest, what I'm doing myself:

Get honest with yourself - Where are you actually at right now? Not where you wish you were or where you think you should be or where you told everyone you'd be by now. Where are you? What three things genuinely need to shift before this year ends? You don't have to write them down if that doesn't work for you. Sometimes it's enough to simply drop into your heart space and feel the truth of where you are.

Feel what you're holding - Before you can release anything, you need to acknowledge what you're carrying. Drop into your body. What emotions have you been storing? What experiences haven't you fully processed? Allow yourself the privilege of investigating what you're feeling within your body without judgment. This isn't about analyzing or understanding—it's about feeling. Your body knows what needs to be released.

Take one bold action - Not huge, necessarily, but something that signals change. Have the conversation you've been avoiding. Set the boundary you've been afraid to set. Apply for the thing you have been wanting. Start the project and end what needs ending. Let the universe know you're serious this time. Let your body know you're finally listening.

Release what's ready to go - Take a piece of paper and write down everything you're done carrying into another year: old stories about yourself, limiting beliefs that keep you small, resentment toward people who've already moved on, fear that masquerades as practicality, shame about where you are versus where you "should" be. The undigested emotions you've been storing in your body. All of it. Then go outside under the moon—even if it's cloudy, the energy is there—and safely burn it or bury it. Feel it leave your body. The supermoon's pull affects more than just the tides. It can help pull out what you've been holding inside.

Set your intentions - While you're out there, be clear about what you're calling in for these final weeks of the year and into 2026. The old needs to leave before the new can arrive. Speak it out loud if you can. Let the words move through the autumn air and become real.

Commit to what's non-negotiable - Decide what you're no longer willing to compromise on. What matters too much to keep sacrificing. What you refuse to still be struggling with a year from now. Say it to yourself. Say it to someone you trust. Make it real enough that backing out would mean breaking a promise to the most important person in your life: you.

The Emotional Intensity is Part of the Process

Fair warning: the supermoon might make you feel like you're coming undone a little. Like everything you've been holding together is suddenly too much to manage.

You're not falling apart. You're feeling everything more intensely, which means things that have been buried will surface. Emotions you've been managing will demand attention. Old wounds might ache in new ways. The gap between where you are and where you want to be might suddenly feel impossible to bridge.

This is actually good news, even though it doesn't feel like it. Energy that's stuck can't move. Energy that moves can be released, can be transformed, can be redirected toward something better.

So if you need to cry, cry. If anger rises up, let it move through you without judgment. If fear shows up, acknowledge it without letting it make all your decisions. Your body knows how to process this if you'll stop trying to control it so tightly.

Stay hydrated—water helps energy move. If you can't sleep, don't fight it; breathe, meditate, rest even if you're awake. Don't make major decisions while you're in peak emotion, but don't ignore what the emotions are telling you either.

This is a clearing. It might not feel comfortable, but it's necessary. Better now than carrying it into another year.

Signs This Energy is Already Working on You

You might already be feeling this shift. Maybe you've noticed:

• Finding this post at exactly the moment you needed to read it

• A growing restlessness, like you can't keep doing things the same way anymore

• That end-of-year panic hitting earlier and harder than usual

• Old patterns or even old people showing up again (the universe giving you another chance to handle things differently)

• Sudden clarity about what you actually want, cutting through years of confusion

• Fear mixed with excitement, like you're standing at the edge of something

That's not random. That's the energy pulling you toward your next level. That's the universe saying: this is your moment, stop waiting - do it now!

Keeping Momentum After the Portal Closes

The cosmic boost is temporary—you have about a week of maximum support. But you can keep this momentum going through the end of the year and beyond:

Build small, consistent routines around what actually matters to you. Morning practices that ground you. Evening practices that help you process the day. Small actions that compound over time - micro habits that enhances what is best within you.

Find people who are doing this work too. You need witnesses and support. You need people who won't let you fall back into old patterns without noticing.

Celebrate every step forward, no matter how small. Every conversation you have. Every boundary you set. Every morning you show up. They all count.

Expect resistance from your old patterns—they're comfortable even when they're killing you slowly. That's normal. Keep going anyway.

And pay attention to the moon cycles going forward. New moons for beginning things. Full moons for releasing. There's a rhythm to growth that matches the natural world if we're willing to follow it instead of fighting against it.

What I Know to Be True

I've learned that there are moments when change comes easier. When the current is with you instead of against you. When the universe opens a door and whispers: now, this is your time, stop making excuses.

This is one of those moments.

The 10/10 portal is open. The supermoon is illuminating what we've been hiding from ourselves. October is forcing us to reckon with how we've spent this year and what we want the next one to look like. The final quarter is here, and time is running out to make this year mean something.

You can wait for another time, another sign, another cosmic alignment, another January 1st with its empty promises and good intentions that fade by February.

Or you can recognize that this is the sign. This is the moment. This is the panic you're feeling transformed into fuel for actual change.

Another year will pass regardless. The question is what you'll do with the time that remains in this one.

Your old self is ready to be released. Your new self is ready to emerge. The version of you that accomplishes things, that moves forward, that makes something of herself—she's waiting for you to stop stalling.

The universe has opened the door.

In a blink of an eye, we'll be singing Auld Lang Syne again.

What will you have done with this moment by then?

I ask you to reflect upon this softly.

With a Quiet Mind & a Quiet Heart,

Arora